Monday, January 6, 2014

Empty Soul

a switchboard in my head
measures out who I'll be
emotions rage in cups
with pinches of spice and fire
and tablespoons of ice

when men cry
it feels like heavy weights
are falling from the eyes
the soul is a cup of water
and tears are drops that overflow
exposing the heart underneath

some moments are clear
like perfect ice on a lake
you can see everything
other moments foggy
none of the lines match
two halves do not make a whole

the switchboard master changes
as fast as light can go
one master for each moment
splintered fragments of time
like shattered ice
my frozen soul
in pieces

stabbing pains and soothing warmth
each director has a path
the destination unclear
wavering this way, tilting there
like a drunk weaving
through crowds of memories
and dreams

if only once a choice was made
a goal was written in stone
my soul would rest in the bowl
rather than freezing, shattering,
wavering, wandering,
or dying all alone

Monday, August 12, 2013

Is It Love?

That moment of silence
Right after goodnight
And right before you leave
It is a hole in the heart for both of you
Wondering, waiting
Do I say it first?
A breath of fresh air it would be to speak
But what if it isn’t real?
If all of this is just imagined
Feelings?
Do you know?
Who will be the first to say

I love you?

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Remember, Remember



A dark
Despairing
Black
Pool
You are drowning

A tall
Steep
Depressing
Cliff
You are falling

A blind
Angry
Frightening
Darkness
You are lost

Waiting for the rope
Hoping to be caught
Praying for a Savior

A strong
Lasting
Enduring
Rope
You are saved

A thick
Knotted
Beautiful
Net
You are alive

A loving
Warm
Enveloping
Hug
You remember

There is more to this life
Than to fail
You have a chance

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Photograph

You know
when you see
a perfect photograph
The contrast
Your skin
Flawless
Everything

Your makeup
The eyes
All of the color
Makes you
Beautiful

You see that picture
With envy
And longing
To be the person
Inside

And the realization
Is sad
When you see
The perfect person
Skinny
Beautiful

That’s you
Inside
The person you want to be

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Sometimes The Heart Is Cruel



Sometimes the heart is cruel
Falling into love at the drop of a hat
And breaking
Just as quickly.
Yearning after that someone
That hurt it once before
But you forgave
Anyway.

Sometimes the heart is cruel,
Ignoring the mind’s plea for mercy
And going on,
Only to get hurt once more,
Knowing no fear,
But that of being
Alone.

Sometimes the heart is cruel,
Pleading with the mind
For someone- anyone!
To take away
The unbearable loneliness.
To find the one
That will be there
Always

Credit to Holly Black

Just Look



Expressions as fleeting
As a freak thunderstorm
Fly across my face
While I savor them
Deeply
Inside.

Not given to judgment,
Or instant dislike,
But she
Just rubs me
The wrong
Way.

A constant irritant,
Prone to
Contradictions,
Making my poor
Head
Ache.

Anger flares,
A strange feeling,
But soon gone,
Leaving me empty,
Once
More.

Only to be reminded
Of the pain left behind
The next day
When it happens
Again
And again.

The only thing I ask
Is a
constant.
Why can’t she
Just
Look? 

Credit to Holly Black

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Fish Out Of Water

Floundering
A fish in air
Cannot breathe
The same is said
For me


My air is love
I breathe in hugs
To speak I give
But what am I to do
When deprived?

What is the answer?
Sugar and sweet
Help me forget
The need to breathe
For a moment or two

When I am sad,
I suffocate
The air-it isn't
Tangible

It feels as though
I am drowning
Where I am not a fish
The sea is full of color
I cannot appreciate

The color all around me
Is like the air I breathe
It exists, but I cannot tell
To open my eyes
I burn my lungs

So even though
The air is there
I suffocate
Like a fish
Out of water