Pain

This pain I feel deep inside
Can't you see it in my eyes?
My voice I mask so you can't hear
The pain I feel without you near

My eyes are wet with tears unshed
This pain inside it has not fled
From in my heart and in my mind
I somehow wish that I was not of time

So uncertain a life that time does make
But is my wish some big mistake?
My life askew from what I know
Everything is wrong-tell me it isn't so

What did I do to create such regrets
Such regrets I wish I could just forget
My life is wrong, this much I know
How to make it right is the question, though

Much of it stems from that one so bright
His love he gives holds me high in the night
But he is so far, so far away
But our love does not dim, no matter what others may say

But it is this love which hurts so much
It's sad to say but it's truth to touch
When he is so far away from me
It is sadness in my eyes you see

Though he is far, you'd never know
That his love and mine would hurt me so
I hide it well, you soon will see
These hidden hurts are inside of me.

But if you see within my eyes
A deeper hurt so great in size
You will now know my pain inside
Should you have read this poem I hide?

Out Of Place

Do you ever feel
Kind of out of place
No one understands
Why you’re all that way
Have you ever known
What’s inside of you?
It’s bursting through
It’s here for you

It’s in your life
It’s in your mind
It’s out of place
It’s right outside
It’s here for you
And now you’ll find
What’s been hiding
in your mind

Have you ever seen
Things that don’t make sense
When you wish for strength
Of heart and mind
Misunderstood
And loving life
Two opposites
In life they’ll find

It’s in your life
It’s in your mind
It’s out of place
It’s right outside
It’s here for you
And now you’ll find
What’s been hiding
in your mind

Life is a path
that is found amidst
our answers to silent prayers
When we come together
And we understand
The part of our lives
That will never end.

It’s in your life
It’s in your mind
It’s out of place
It’s right outside
It’s here for you
And now you’ll find
What’s been hiding
in your mind

When you’re out of place
Misunderstood
Living life
Fighting through
You will see
what you’ve gone through
You’re strength of mind
And heart
It’s you.

Another World

My heart is far from here
Maybe it's flown away
Away to that other world
Where life is easy, we play

Where life doesn't ever hurt
This is where my heart does go
It's in this world of poetry
My heart is safe from all that hurts us so

Each heart has traveled to their world
Where life's worries do float away
So when my life is hard or down
My heart and mind go to say

It is in my world so filled with love
That I do go, whenever I can
For I know, as you know, as we all know
That these worlds are an escape from man

When life is rough, when life is hard
I can just open up my book
A book to read, a book of poetry,
As soon as I stop and look

My world is calm, without a care
Unlike the cares of this world
And I hope we'll always know where to go
Just fly away with wings unfurled

On wings so light, let your heart fly
To the world inside your mind
For your world is safer than here-
You will start to find

So whenever you look, wherever you go
Remember your life is good
For your life has another life
Inside your mind, underneath the hood

So fly away whenever you can
When life, it seems unfair
For you will see, as I have seen
That this world is always there

You float away to a distant place
without going anywhere
So enjoy this world...
You will find it within your mind
Everywhere...

Trusting Me

Sometimes I wonder
If I share too much
Too much of me
So far to touch

These pieces of me
So sacred and true
All special to me
And hard to appreciate for you

It's hard, I think
For all to understand
These pieces of me
They make up who I am

These special things
Shared so willingly
Will someday hurt
When I'm older and free

I fear that I
Someday will be
Hurt deep and hard
For my simple trust in everybody

Its true I trust
Everyone a lot
But is it wrong?
I dont know, it's not taught

Story Of My Life

What do you do
You live in the wrong place
Life's a mystery
Wearing the wrong face

Everything is wrong
Where everything is right
This oxymoron
It wants to fight

People here
So kind so gentle
People I love
They're all sentimental

That's me too
I love that way
But the guys are wrong
Even through all we say

They smile they wave
They love me too
But not in that way
I would wish they would

I try not to dwell
On my problems now
My friends they have
Problems they've found

So I try to help
I stretch myself thin
Not thinking of self
I want them to win

Then I think to myself,
Am I doing this right?
Am I giving enough of self?
Am I? Should I fight?

Should I give more or less?
Am i good enough?
No, not yet

I will give more,
I think, I'll try
But how do I know
If i've given enough this time?

Am I selfless or selfish?
For my life's whole goal
Is to be that person
Who is known to uphold

I will be that person
Who gives so much
That's why I am loved
That's truth to touch

I hope I'm there
When you need me
I'll always try
For I've been needy

I know what it's like
Feeling sad and down
I hope you'll trust me
And try me out

Please don't hesitate
To turn to me
Though I have problems
I will help, you'll see

How much I love
My friends and family
They all mean so much
And are dear to me

I don't deserve them
Yes I do
For as they have helped me
So will I try to help you

Oh how much I owe
The ones I love
Their beauty straight
From up above

They make me whole
And who I am
I just hope
That they can understand

Music In Our Lives

In the sea of all life
In the garden of what's right
Music fills each and every soul

In calamity or in calm
Everyone hears a song
Permeating everywhere they go

Song smiles on every hand
Of all those who can understand
The power of music in our lives

It can be heard everywhere
There is music in the air
When we go out and open our ears

A song is held in each heart
When one leaves, another cannot part
For song will ever live on inside of us

If we listen, we will hear
The gladness and spring, nothing to fear
For music is there in each and every heart

Even when it is quiet and dark
Music will never from us part
It will stay in our hearts and minds

Song, like sunshine, like spring
It will ever and always bring
Life to all our lives

Inside Me

Sometimes I feel like such a baby
When I cry at all the little things
When I sit out all the little hurts
They don't know how I feel deep inside

Chorus
When my pain hurts the most
When it's all deep inside
They don't know how
All the little things
Hurt so much
With what's held inside

I've had a lot of the little hurts
That are better within a day
But sometimes the little hurts
Overwhelm me-I start to cry

Chorus
When my pain hurts the most
When it's all deep inside
They don't know how
All the little things
Hurt so much
With what's held deep inside

When little hurts overwhelm me
Oh how oh how can I stand?
With my pain that I'm feeling
Seems there's no way for me to stand

Chorus
When my pain hurts the most
When it's all deep inside
They don't know how
All the little things
Hurt so much
With what's held deep inside

And it's then oh it's then that I need you
And it's then that I turn to you
Cause with everything that I'm feeling
Seems there's nothing else I can do

Cause
When my pain hurts the most
When it's all deep inside
You don't know how
All the little things
Hurt so much
With everything I've held deep inside